Things are beginning to come together with much thought and reflection. I’ve been seeking my inner guidance this past week or so and this has brought me to a place where I have made some decisions about what to do for this year.
I feel that I am on the right path with this. All of the indications point to a big YES as I have mediatated, prayed and journaled about where I want to go. It’s always been a source of the greatest wonder to me that when I send out the great “Unknowing” into the universe without critique and without demanding to understand, that the universe responds to that with an answer. I used to hate uncertainty and was uncomfortable with not knowing, with doubt, with having more questions than answers but over time I have learned to take a more relaxed approach and when I don’t know I allow myself to not know.
Right up until yesterday, I didn’t know for sure which direction I would take, but I kept reflecting and stayed with the uncertainty, just letting it be, and being with it while I waited for clarity. Clarity came in a series of events both external and internal to me.
First, the flood crisis in Queensland left me frustrated in not being able to do anything to help due to the distance, and my disabilities. Then, I had a conversation on an online forum about that and expressed my desire to be involved in some capacity of ministry such as chaplaincy or similar. That led to my being put in touch with someone who spoke words of such encouragement that I took a bold step and sent an application to a the Australian Red Cross and mentioned in it, that I wish to work as a chaplain. I felt that the “Nod” was given to this action by God/Universe and now I am waiting to hear back.
My studies were another area of uncertainty. I had been vascillating between this, and that course, this or that degree, but yesterday in a flash of certainty I decided that I will change my course and will pursue a Batchelor of Arts, Religion Studies Major. Again, I felt a universal YES to this action and I am very much looking forward to commencing my studies with the Australia.
I saw my doctor today to get some paperwork pertaining to studying filled out and also to get the blood test results and was delighted to hear that my cholesterol levels have dropped by 50% since the last time he tested them.
I sense the truth in the Scripture passage which says “All the promises of God are YES and AMEN!” today.
Yes. So let it be.
- Flood-hit Grantham residents return home (news.theage.com.au)
- Queensland Floods 2011 (up-an-atom.blogspot.com)